Just an Update

I haven't written in a while and just thought I would give everyone an update...
Thursday I took Sesleigh to the doctor for her physical for school, the doctor was pretty impressed with how much she knew...she's just like a sponge and soaks up any and all information she comes across. This is a great thing but I have to be diligent in filtering what she takes in-sometimes loved ones are there and willing to try to help to teach but it's hard when they don't have the same values as we do in this house. My mom taught her something about the current president and while it may have some truth to it, it was presented in a disrespectful way, and I was unhappy with what my soon-to-be five-year-old recited to me so proudly. But that's neither here nor there. I also asked the doctor to look at Sassy's hammer toes and see if there was something we could do about those-they are so bad and her toes curl under each other so badly her toenails are cutting into the ones they are underneath of. Doctor said we could send her to a specialist but then she noticed something else of greater concern...Sesleigh's right leg is 1/2 inch longer than her left, and if she continues to grow with nothing being done about it her spine will start to curve to compensate and present a whole other plethera of problems. The doctor believes this is from when she broke her leg 2 years ago, she thinks that when it healed her body produced more "stuff" in her bone making it longer. So we have to go back to Sesleigh's pediactric orthopedic surgeon to see what the next step is to correct this problem. And while I'm there I can ask about her toes!
We just got back from our annual family reunion. Once a year my Mom's side of the family camps one weekend and we all eat and get together and look at old pictures and take new ones. I love my family but today as I sit back and reflect I am saddened. I have been on a rough long journey these past two years to renew my faith and live a Christian life style to ensure my place in Heaven. I am sad to say that I will have to do this without the involvement of some of my very beloved family members. I have always been close with my mom and her brothers and my cousins, but I think I want to change my family tree so I can see my children in Heaven and make sure they understand what God did for them and what they can do in return. I think that it was in Luke when Jesus said that to be His disciple you may have to sacrifice relationships of loved ones to do that. I am not saying that I will not see these people after this life because only God can judge them, but right now I cannot spend time with them without falling back into old ways and it breaks my heart. But even as I sit here typing this with tears in my eyes and realizing how broken I really am, I know that something has got to give. The Lord has not placed this guilt and longing on my soul for no reason, so I must heed His call and just become new without all this step by step stuff. I think I am gonna have to be like Nike and "just do it"! All at once, all or nothing, dive right in and just revel in the rewards I will reap for it and not count my losses for it.
Well thanks for all who read this and let me just ramble for so long, I appreciate it.