Nothing spectacular

Well nothing spectacular today, just hadn't written in a while so I thought I would. Construction continues on what will be our bedroom, this past weekend I helped Caleb hang the door and frame in the ceiling and put in rafters. It was pretty cool. Sometimes I amaze myself with the things I manage to do. What a beautiful creation God made the woman. She is strong yet gentle, intelligent yet submissive, rational yet emotional, fearless yet sensitive. I think about all the different roles I play each day-teacher, transporter, gourmet chef of chicken nuggets, housekeeper, character engineer, lover, therapist, accountant/bookeeper, household manager. But the one thing I want to be known for is Christ follower so that my children may become the same. That is my most important role each day, but it is something I struggle with the most...I want people to know Christ because of my actions and the way I present myself. I don't want there to be any doubt about who my Father is and where I will be when I leave this life. I guess we all battle temtation and Satan knows my weaknesses well, so I leave with this thought I know where to go and what I'm supposed to do, but how is my question. I'm glad that we are doing this series at the church I'm sure I will find my answer there.

second chair

I went to church this morning and listened to the sermon and was shown that I sit in the second chair. I have been comfortable sitting in the second chair of faith called compromise. I've been here for a while. I've lost my motivation. I can't wait for Bible study to start again so I can spark the fire. Just need something to move me. I also realized a few things in the last couple days. I figured out what my biggest fear is and it totally shocked me. I fear being forgettable. I love to be the center of attention, all eyes on me, that's why I always assumed I would be a performer of some sorts. But last night, I was unnoticeable (is that a word), and then this morning at church. I haven't been in a few weeks but I usually sit in the same spot when I'm there and there is an elder and his wife who generally sit behind me, this week during the welcome the elder's wife grabbed my hand shook it gentally, gave me a warm smile and introduced herself, expecting me to do the same. So I did for the third time. Now I'm sure that this woman makes it a point to greet people each week to put forth a good impression of the church, but I have failed on my part to leave a lasting impression, and therefore have become forgettable. Right now I just wish I had a shell to crawl into and just hide there for a while. I have no desire to do anything, although I am pretty good at faking it. It was all I could do to go to church today, but that's what I do. So I went. I don't want to leave my house, but there are things that need to be done so I do them. I think I am just getting wrapped up in the redundancy of it all. It's very monotonous, my life, and therefore I'm afraid forgettable. I think I need to read Katie Brazleton's Pathway to Purpose again...she talks about how God has a purpose even for the little everyday things in life. So anyways, just my thoughts for the day.

oh i almost forgot

Zoey took her first steps last night! How could I forget that! Just wanted to let everyone know

Just another day

Well, it's been a good week, I went to my sister's house on Monday and stayed until Wednesday. I've got some good pictures of my nephew Cooper, but I'll have to get them uploaded to the computer before I can post them on here. He's so stinkin' cute! He and Zoey are the same age, my sister and I had the same due date, but Zoey came three days before Cooper and neither of them on the date they had given us-thank God for that because they were big babies! But he just towers over Zoey and weighs about 5 pounds more than her. That's ok I think she is still meaner though, she hit him on the head with his toy hammer and left a bruise. I felt so bad, but my sister says that we'll have to come over more often to toughen him up...hehehe. He's a pretty good baby too, usually in a good mood and man can he make some funny faces. I'm so glad my sister and I got to experience these two together.
Well Tuesday was Jade's birthday, she turned 9. Today, Caleb and I are taking her and 3 of her friends and Sesleigh of course up to the cosmetology school that my friend goes to. The girls are going to get a fancy up do and their nails done...ooh la la! Then we are going to Monicals to have some of the best pizza around. Then we will come back to the house and have ice cream cake (that I made!) and the girls will spend the night. I think Caleb and I will need a vacation after they leave tomorrow, I'm already worn out just typing it!
Yesterday was a long and involved day. I went for a walk/run with my mom in the morning, then took the girls to the library for the magician show, then went to my friend's house to put together her elliptical machine-that's right I put it together all by myself (I'm pretty proud of myself for that). Then we came back here and I started the ice cream cake, then I did some laundry, made supper, did dishes, did more laundry, worked some more on the ice cream cake, gave baths, more laundry, and finally finished the ice cream cake. Whew! By the end of the day I was grouchy and ready to crash, but Caleb and Zoey both were up all night...so begins another day! I don't think it's going to be much better today either, what do you think? Sometimes I wonder why nobody pays stay-at-home moms, it's unreal. I think Rosanne said it best when she says that being a stay-at-home mom is like being a doctor, only the hours are longer and it's way bloodier! The pay is also way worse, but I get rewarded in a way that is so much more meaningful when I see my kids laugh and play and do the right thing!

Romans

So last night I was reading my 5X5X5 plan (I am still way behind!) And I came across a verse that just was AWESOME! It's Romans 8:38,39 "And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from his love. Death can't, and life can't. The angels can't, and the demons can't. Our fears for today, our worries about tomorrow, and even the powers of hell can't keep God's love away. Whether we are high above the sky or in the deepest ocean, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord." So if it isn't amazing enough that life nor death, angels nor demons can separate us from God's love, the fact that my fears and worries will never make God love me less. If this is true then what is there even to worry about? The powers of hell cannot even take God's love from me! This is something that I have always known but reading this last night just had such an impact I'm not even sure how to explain it. I am just passing this passage along hoping maybe it touches someone else the way it has touched me.
Everything else is going pretty good. Sesleigh has her very first recital today at 2! They had dress rehearsal yesterday and she did as well as can be expected for a 4-year-old. I have lost 2 pounds this week, so I'm hoping for around 3 this next week then I will have lost 10 pounds since Good Friday. I have been a lot more active this week and a lot less hard on myself...so I guess it worked out for me. Monday, Caleb is leaving to go out west and the girls and I are going along so he can drop us off at my sisters. I will be sure to take the camera and post pictures of my nephew "Tank" and Zoey and Sesleigh. I think it will be a good time. My nephew (his name is really Cooper) and Zoey were born 3 days apart. And Zoey is older but he makes her look like a dwarf, he is just a Tank. Anyway, nothing else too exciting for now, God bless.