should i just quit...

I know how amy has been feeling...I never seem to get on here and get anything written. So I wonder if I should just give it up, but then when I do write I enjoy it and enjoy seeing what others have to say. So our biggest news right now is that we finally got our fence up in back. It looks so nice and is great to be able to let the dog out there and not have to worry about her running off. Another piece of fun news for us is that in June a bunch of us are going to Wisconsin to watch Aerosmith! I'm really excited about this because I have had tickets 3 times now and have not seen them yet. Life is always full of unexpected circumstances. Anyway, I have been watching my friend's little girl for the last 4 weeks or so, and it has been interesting having 2 toddlers in the house. She is a good little baby and sometimes help to entertain ZJ, so it's not bad. Although last week I decided to be crazy and took them both grocery shopping with me! That was fun, G-baby had to let a scream out every once in a while to remind me she was still in the cart and ZJ would yell at her to stop, so I was the mom in Walmart with the screaming kids! But nobody misbehaved so that was a plus.
I haven't been doing much lately. Laundry and dishes seem to be all that I can get accomplished. I have been reading a lot at night though. Fannie Flagg, the author of Fried Green Tomatoes, has become one of my favorite authors. I just borrowed 2 more of her books from the library. I also started reading Genesis. It was not bad until last night in Chapter 11 when it started talking about all the ancestory. Last night I dreamed about me trying to figure out the family tree of Abraham. It was not fun and did not provide a restful sleep for me! But I woke and find it kind of humorous, I don't know why, but I did.
I guess that's about it.

Housework

So the last 2 days, I don't if you would call it spring cleaning, but I have been doing everything and not looking like much is getting accomplished. I pulled down spring clothes for the girls and did like 10 loads of laundry as a result. Then Sas and I cleaned her room and reorganized everything and cleaned under everything. Today is ZJ's room and dishes and more laundry. Maybe next week I will actually get the dusting, sweeping, mopping, curtains washed, and bathroom cleaned like I would like. It never ends does it. Anywho, I don't really have any other revelations, just been kinda blah, or I guess more appropriately complacent. I just don't really wanna do anything, but I know I need to. I don't wanna put any work or effort into anything lately. It all seems overwhelming to try so hard and still not get anywhere. I probably sound nuts right now, but that's the best way I know how to describe it. Hope everyone else is more energetic than me.

Pneumonia and RSV

So last week when my back finally started feeling better, Zoey started getting sick. We were up most of Tuesday night doing breathing treatments and downing motrin. Wednesday night was much the same. Thursday, I had to work so Zoey went to stay with my dad and stepmom. He is an RN and she is a respiratory therapist. Dad told me that Zoey needed to see a doc, because pneumonia has been going around and you could feel the rattle in her chest. So I called off work for Friday and got her in to see the doctor. And yes she has pneumonia and RSV too. We were in the doctor gettin x-rays, and lab work done and all that fun stuff for about an hour and a half. The fever still hadn't broken completely so on top of the inhaler and antibiotic she was still downing motrin. From Tuesday to Sunday, we used an entire bottle of motrin. Sunday morning was still rough and I was thinking maybe we should call the doctor and tell her that ZJ wasn't getting much better. She just layed around and slept most of the morning. For those of you who know ZJ, she does NOT lay around ever. But I put her in the bath and then later she went outside for a few minutes and seemed rejuvinated. Praise the Lord, by the end of the night last night she was being onery and running around aggravating her sisters and dad. As much as she drives me nuts and I love cuddling her when she is sick, I much prefer her being rotten and loud and energetic and full of life. She was so pitiful last week, her eyes weren't Zoey eyes, and she just wanted Mommy to hold her. It was nice last night to finally sleep all night long. I haven't done that for about 2 1/2 weeks. Well just wanted to let you all in on my fun and exciting week, now it's time to clean the house, since it hasn't been done for about the same amount of time I haven't slept!

Purpose Driven Life

So I know that most people did this like 6 years ago, but I've started reading Rick Warren's Purpose Driven Life. I had originally intended to start on Ash Wednesday, but since I spent Tuesday evening in the ER and was consequently given pain killers and muscle relaxers, I was in no shape to read Wednesday, Thursday, or Friday. I did start on Saturday though, and it has been a blessing. I think what I've already read, I already knew it was just brought to my attention in a different way, and actually made me think about it.
My trip to the ER brought about no information as to why I am having problems, and the subsequent doctor's visit brought nothing new to the table either. They were just ready to give me shots in the butt, that didn't help and prescribe lots of drugs to cover up the problem not fix it. I don't know if any of you have ever taken muscle relaxers and/or vicodin, but it is not something you do when you have a 2-year-old in the house. I would actually like to be aware of what she is doing not just doped up lying on the couch. The first day we spent at my grandmother's house so I could sleep and someone would be there to watch the baby. The next couple I just went without until it was naptime for her. Then during the weekend I started taking the vicodin and it messed up my stomach and gave me vertigo. So I stopped taking that and now I'm right back where I started. With all the pain and no cause apparantly.
Anyway, I am going to take the kindergartener to school and start my busy purpose driven day.

a season of change

I'll start by sharing my exciting news from last week. On Thursday (Lincoln's birthday) my family went down to Springfield. No we did not get to go see Obama. We went to the old state capital to watch my step dad get sworn in as a U.S. citizen. He took his oath with his granddaughters watching and snapping pictures. It was pretty amazing. An experience most do not get to witness for someone so close. One thing that really got me was in front of my stepdad was an elderly gentleman. This man had the walker and the oxygen tank and a face that has seen a lot in his days. He got to take his oath and he will die a citizen of the U.S. I just made up my own story for him in my head. About how this has been his dream since he was a young man coming from Europe through Ellis Island. And he finally got to achieve near the end of his life. There was a lot of hype about the President being in Springfield on that day, but for our family it was much more special than that.
With that said, I will talk about the next season in my life. I feel as if things are stirring for a storm that will bring about a change. I know God has a plan for me and my job is to be still and listen. I have made contact with an old friend that I haven't spoken to for about 4 years. I thought we were on bad terms but it was a glorious reunion. God gets all the credit for making me have the urge to call today. Although finding her was awesome, I feel as though I'm losing old friends. We have all changed so much in the past 3 years, and I don't feel like we can connect on any common ground. My husband listened to me but he doesn't get why I need that extra female companionship in my life. He thinks that he just needs to release his thoughts to me and no one else. But I need another woman's point of view sometimes. I don't let people in very easily and I don't wear my emotions on my sleeve so this is big for me even to be writing about. But I kinda feel lost right now with no confidante that gets me and truly will let me unload on them when I need to. I don't want someone that I just go to with my problems and she comes to me with hers and we give advice. That's not exactly what I mean. I can't even explain it. Maybe I'm just over analyzing, or maybe it's just hormones, or maybe I'm crazy. But I think that most women have that one person that just gets it that is not her spouse. Am I nuts or what. Don't you need someone besides just your spouse to talk to or is that supposed to be sufficient. I've been talking to God today asking for some help, but all I get is to just wait for the storm to pass.

so it's been awhile

What's up with that? Not near as many posts this month, but I am going to do something that I got from a friend...
So you're supposed to go to your sixth folder of photos, and find the sixth picture and tell a memory about it. Then tag 5 others to do the same. So tag your it...

I don't really know what this picture is. I don't think I was the photographer and I don't know where it's taken. I think it was 2 years ago when Caleb and Jade went to the Girl Scouts Father/Daughter dance. Sorry the memory's not any better.

I did it

I went yesterday for my orientation for school and signed up for my 2 classes I need to take this semester. I am going back to get my teaching certification. I only need 4 classes before I can student teach. Well really 5 but I got jipped on the 5th one. It is a class I have already taken but it was too long ago for them to count the credit for it, so I have to retake it. But that's how it goes sometimes. I am kinda dreading going back to school again, but I just want to have my own classroom and teach my own students. So I guess I'll have to bite the bullet for a while and do what I need to in order to get where I want to be.
Some other fun news is that we paid off my car last week. It is mine now and I plan to keep it for a while, so the next time we buy a car we can pay cash for it. I don't want to have a car payment ever again. I know that sometimes in life don't always go how you plan, but at least we have a plan and are trying to stick with it. It will be so good to finally be debt free. By the end of this year hopefully we can have everything but the house and my student loan paid off. Plus have our emergency fund where it needs to be. That means no more renovations on the house for a while. But that's ok. It will be nice when we can just hire out the renovations for the house and pay cash for it all right up front.
Well that's all for now, have a good week.