i love my family

I just want to clarify something from my blog the other day. I do not think my family are bad people. Some of them just do certain things that are not good for me and I am not yet strong enough to be around certain things and not participate. I do not necessarily think these things are bad in and of themselves, I just cannot control myself which leads to sin, so therefore until I become stronger I cannot be around "stuff". I am talking about being able to stand up for myself and what I believe in no matter where or who the pressure comes from. I don't think that my loved ones put pressure on me, but I feel pressured to live the way I used to because that's just how it's been for so long. And right now I am trying to become a new person with a new outlook on life and am trying not to go back to my old ways. I did not mean to hurt anyone's feelings or try to blame others for my own past bad decisions...I just often have a difficult time getting things out the way they are in my own head.